A second no more

I can take this heartache

No more

Remove me quickly for I

Know what is in store

For those that cherish this

Life

No respect for others

Husband or wife

 

I can take this heartache

No more

Children crying with so

Many lying about what

They have in store

To steal your soul and

Still want more

 

I can take this heartache

No more

Remove me from this or open

The doors

And let thy wrath be held back

A second no more

I can take this heartache

No more….

From my sleep and my bed

Smoke rising filling the air

From my sleep and my bed

Drifting slowly like it has

Not a care from my feet

But not my head

Smoke rising filling the air

But no sound nor smell

In the air

Smoke rising from my bed

But no panic no wonder or

Scare

Smoke rising filling the air

Woken from dreams something

About care quickly forgotten

As I look and I stare

Smoke rising from my bed

Only thing moving is that

Fly on my head

No concern or wonder in these

Trying times for it was foretold

That there would be signs

Smoke rising filling the air

Roll on judgement for the

Time is near

The direction I would grow

Choices made so long ago

Of how I would stand and

The direction I would grow

Things that have dictated

In me… things that have

Shown me what I see

 

Choices made so long ago

Somehow forgot like boy

I did not know

But directions were taken

For explanation I do know

Of what is my stance and

Where I will go

 

Choices made so long ago

Of what in this life I wanted

To show

Those things that have been

My guiding light

Helped me in darkness and

Made things so bright

 

Choices made so long ago

Of what I think right and things

Not wanting to know

Choosing a path that helps others

Grow

 

Choices made so long ago…..

For the things I allowed

I dreamed a dream

The strangest of dreams

Things were done and

Things were seen

Not really me… or could

This be

For the things I allowed

Did not seem like me

It was only the other day

I did say… that turn the

Other cheek you must be

Joking no way

But in this dream

The strangest of dreams

I took some beatings and

Was pleased it would seem

 

I dreamed a dream

The strangest of dreams

Is there meaning is this

Dream for me

Have I changed in ways

Still not seen

I’ll await a response in

Those deepest of dreams

Not wanting to be

Before I opened

My eyes this morning

A fear had gripped hold

Of me

 

Before I opened

My eyes this morning

I was scared of what

Might not be

 

Not seeing you there

Beside me or feeling

Your warm embrace

I could not open my

Eyes for the maybe

Or just in case

 

Before I opened

My eyes this morning

I said a thousand prayers

Not wanting my dream

To end

I hid behind so many layers

Of imaginary places

And the things that

We had done

Not wanting to loose

Sensation that possibly

We were one

 

Before I opened

My eyes this morning

I would rather my

World was done

 

Not wanting to be

Alone

In this life of imaginary

Fun

Not wanting my eyes

To open in case you

Were not with me

Before I opened

My eyes this morning

I prayed that you

Were the one

Who would be there

Right beside me letting

Me know life had begun

Before I opened

My eyes this morning….

Reason to hide

Is it the sun’s rays that make

People want to hold hands

Is it the violet that makes

One suddenly understand

For all at once the world

Is alive

Gone is the darkness and

Reason to hide

Out come the lovers

Expressing what’s true

All of a sudden so many

Love you

 

Is it the sun’s rays that make

Us alive

No longer are people scared

To you to confide

Loves true meaning and the

Heart’s desire

It happens every year I call

It bloody loins on fire

Is it the sun’s rays….

My own way

If I love you let it be

My own way

I do not want to hear

From you the harsh

Words that you say

I’m not here for

Expectations or to play

The games you play

If I love you let me do

It my own way

No sound did I make

I felt the pain within me

My soul did start to cry

I sat there not knowing

Why tears came to my

Eye

 

I felt the pain within me

But could not understand

What was it in these

Days

How do we define man

 

I felt the pain within me

Lost in a world I do not

Own

Seen are circumstance

Watched are children

Grown

 

I felt the pain within me

As my soul did shed a tear

No sound did I make

My face showing no fear

 

I felt the pain within me

But how I still try to be whole

I know my heart was broken

I felt it in every way

I try not to let it stop me

Or from my love for others

Display

A form a negativity that

Creeps to destroy the soul

I know my heart was broken

But how I still try to be whole

Not that we are the same

Come and let me heal you

For my heart was broken

Too

For do you not feel it

It is my reflection in you

Not that we are the same

Or even close to one

But can you not sense

The pain it is time that

This was gone

Come and let me heal you

For that is what I do

To share my love with

Others and define the

Me and you

Come and let me heal you

For my heart was broken

Too

Use words of love and

Encouragement to help

Us make it through

Happy Birthday Isaiah

I don’t know where the

Time has gone

Your now thirteen but

It does not seem that

Long

Since you were just a

Baby boy

And made my heart

So filled with joy

It’s funny how time

Has shown these

Things

And in my life such

Joy you did bring

I’m glad that your a

Part of my heart

For without you here

I would not know where

To start

To express that love that

Resides in me

And gets inspiration every

Time I see

Your smiling face and cheerful

Soul

I thank you Isaiah for making

Me whole

 

Love and blessing always init

From the old man ;x

 

For me

I actually can not stop

Writing those things

I feel in me

 

I actually can not stop

Writing everything I

See

 

I close my eyes and

They are waiting

Just the other side

For me

 

I actually can not stop

Writing and am not

Sure what it could

Be!

That line of negativity

I wish I knew what

To say to you that

Would make you

Know my heart

 

I wish I know what

To display to you

So you just would

Not start

 

That line of negativity

That will always keep

Us apart

 

I wish I knew what

To say to you

 

Feel all those things of thee

If I wrote you a poem

What would you want

It to say

Would you only want

Words of love or

What others would

Have me say

 

If I wrote you a poem

Would you like it in

Reality

Would you want it

To show blessings or

Depict who you could

Be

 

I f I wrote you a poem

You could be imaginary

Could change your mind

And body and be anything

You wanted to be

 

If I wrote you a poem

Wanting to express

Desperately

All those things I see and

Feel all those things of thee

 

If I wrote you a poem

Finally see

I did not pray

For you last night

As my heart was

Feeling empty

 

I did not pray

For you last night

It was not the right

Thing to do

 

Instead I placed

A mirror so I could

See my own reflection

 

Instead I placed

A mirror so I cold

Know who you saw

Too

 

I did not pray

For you last night

I had to many questions

 

I did not pray

For you last night

More interested

In what you knew

 

Instead I stood where

You stand hoping to

Finally see

What it was that made

You so and act like that

To me

 

I did not pray

For you last night